Friday, June 18, 2010

Hide and Seek

Matthew 7:7 "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you"

When things are turned upside down in our lives, what do we do? Some people get angry and lash out at others. Some try to cover up by acting like nothing bothers them at all. Some, depending on the situation, become ashamed and hide from all. They feel like they can't show their upside down lives to anyone because they used to have it all together.

Hiding....when I had went through my depression, I hid. I hid because I was hurt, in pain, embarrassed. How could this have happened to me? Was it some sort of punishment? I couldn't allow people to see that what I thought I was and portrayed to others.....a strong person.....wasn't really what I was as I was going through. When I look back on that time, I am amazed at the fact that it was all part of God's plan to show me something I hadn't been listening to from Him. No it wasn't a punishment, it just felt like one. But God had been trying to get my attention for quite a while. I just wasn't hearing or listening to Him.

What I went through I would never wish on even my enemy. Had a hard time sleeping, eating, taking care of my kids.....I was crying almost all the time. Lost weight and even started looking older. Didn't really want to talk to anyone. So my home became somewhat of a refuge for me. My shield from the world. Spent so much time there either sleeping or watching movies. (Movies were my escape from reality.....sleeping, I didn't have to think about least until I woke up and faced reality again). Don't you know when you hide, it's like walking into the enemy's playground? You are secluded. Hiding allows the enemy to put thoughts in your mind about yourself and your situation that makes it worse for you. You never think it's going to get better. A period of time passes and then you start to want things to change, but you just don't know how to do it.

The help I sought from others didn't help me. It was only temporary. Until I began to seek help from God. It wasn't an instantaneous healing either. But as God is my witness, He helped me and healed me like no one else could. I know people who are in places of hiding and as much as I've tried to help, I now realize, I really can't do anything. ( well, that 's not entirely true...I can pray for them, which I constantly do) Only God can help them. And that's even if they really want to be helped. God knows our hearts and if we truly seek Him to be helped, He will. But we can't just sit back and expect Him to do everything. We need to put in some work too. By work I mean talking to Him, reading His word, spending time with Him to see what He wants us to see and before you know it, He will have changed you all around. No longer are you in the deep pit of despair as your were before.  I can say this because I have been through it. it's not a fun place to be but I guarantee you, He will bring you out and you will be a much stronger person with the wisdom and knowledge He has shown you.....if you just seek Him......

Everything we go through is used as a testimony for someone. So I thank God.......
Romans 5 (KJV) "Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us."

Only God can bring you out of hiding if you strive to seek His face...

God Bless!

1 comment:

  1. Wow...that depression you talked about reminded me of myself a year ago. I had no idea what depression really was until my sister suggested I see someone. I thank God for his healing!!